When you miss someone….

Have u ever missed someone and felt terrible because u think that he/she doesn’t miss u? missing someone is a terrible but at the same time, sweet feeling. You will be sitting around wondering if u meant anything to him/her..thinking if he/she ever cares about u..rushing to the phone once it rings hoping that it’s him/her.looking out of the window hoping that he/she will surprise u by appearing downstairs..sitting in front of the television but thinking of him,missing the final episode of your favourite show..

Laying on your bed,thinking of the last time u were out together.thinking of how nice it will be to sit under the stars again..talking about everything, your dreams, plans, future..logging on to the internet hoping to see him/her online..when u realise that he/she isn’t online and did not return your page, u will start worrying if he/she is ok..

Missing someone is a way of growing up i guess..exposes u to loneliness..it teaches u how to cope with being lonely and let u know that there is actually a feeling known as emptiness..

Sometimes it feels good to miss someone.U know that u really care and u indulge in the feeling of loving/caring for him/her but missing someone and not knowing if he/she is feeling the same is terrible. You feel as if u are being left alone..so if u miss someone, tell him/her and let them know. At the same time, ask if they miss u..don’t let the feeling of missing someone become jealousy..if u are the one being missed and u know it, let the other party know..if u miss him/her too, tell them. Don’t let them wait..

Note:

Yes, I miss “xxx” but I dun have guts to tell him *Sob..sob..Anyway, Happy befday to you! May all the happiness in this world is always be yours…Ameen

Life is messy

Gosh, I dunno whats going on in my life nowadays..i feel that everything is messy..sumthing wrong here, something wrong there..and semua bende tak kena!! Seolah-olah hilang punca..And the worst is I couldn’t think wisely..I admit that my life is too bad right now..Sungguh teruk! If you guys say,  I don’t know how to manage my own life, yes I won’t deny it for the time being! I hate my current job..no more job satisfaction at all! Feel demotivate almost for every hours..STRESS like a $&qw+?~!^ !! am thinking to look for another job.. But once got interview invitations, aku gi reject! (Tak tahu lah pasal apa) Like what I did just now, i’ve cancelled an interview with **** company at Damansara which is I feel excited to apply at the first time..Tidak bersyukurkah aku padanya??? And Oh Wait..still not enuf, the list goes on..another stress is coming from “xxx” (belum tiba masenye utk aku reveal)..hari-hari miserable hidup aku bila pikir pasal ni..tiap kali aku dengar lagu “cinta ini membunuhku”, makin  teruk sedihnya..hasilnya, i will say NO to makan, NO to aktiviti sosial & NO to hobbies & favorate..Balik keje, terperap dalam bilik! Until tomorrow morning baru bukak pintu..and every nite, mimpi ngeri selalu muncul dlm tidur aku..Eeee, seram  dibuatnye..huhu..serioulsy,  I’m so sick of all of this!!

TIDAK!!!

What should I do???..(Oh, tidak sesekali aku ingin menceritakan semua ini tapi inilah realitinya…)*Sob*Sob

Tentang Demam

Wah..lamanye tak update blog!!! Patut lah aku rase bosan semacam je bila bukak blog sendiri..asyik tengok bende yg same je..bukak page nampak old entry..sure korang pun bosan kan?? Dear diary, apologize..your owner is busy like a bee for few weeks..ahaks!!

Actually tader pape sgt pun utk di update..life as usual, bangun pagi..pegi keje, balik, makan & tidur..pejam celik..pejam celik dah bulan november..nampak gayanye tuh la rutin aku sampai ke tua..isk2..giler tak best!! Oh, btw aku baru kembali ke ofis hari ini setelah mendapat dua hari MC! Harus lah best kerana non stop cuti dari sabtu hingga selasa..demam kali ni memang tercatit dlm sejarah hidup aku kerana demam yg terlalu lama..nasib baik lah bukan demam denggi..huhu..aku start rase tak larat dari hr rabu lepas lagi..then jumpa doctor hari khamis lalu mendapat MC..kembali bekerja di hari jumaat tapi badan still rasa lemah2 (maunye tak lemah, ubat tak sempat nak abeskan..kalo aku makan ubat time ofis hours, alamak jadi sleeping beauty la kat ofis..) finally demam melarat hingga ke weekend dan berlarutan lagi hingga ke hari isnin..

Maka terpaksalah aku berjumpa doctor lagi buat kali ke 2..kali ni doc ni best sgt! Bila aku ceritakan sindrom & condition yg aku alami, doc yg pemurah itu begitu baik hati memberikan aku MC selama 2 hari..katanye, aku perlu berehat & makan ubat hingga abis..baru lah cepat sembuh..yeayyy!! terasa gembira di hati aku sebab dapat escape dari keje..tapi part yg paling tak best skali ialah waktu makan ubat batuk..Eeee..yuckss..selalu nak termuntah tiap kali aku minum ubat batuk..memang ubat tuh paling aku tak suke dari zaman kanak2 lagi..tapi ape harus buat, nak cepat sembuh kena gak paksa..cara paling senang, tutup hidung dan minum..ingatkan mujarab la taktik tuh tp skali bila nak telan, Ya Allah tuhan saja yg tahu perasaan aku..memang nak terkeluar balik ubat tu..mcm2 rase ade..terus aku minum air milo utk cover balik rase ubat yg tak sedap…(yg aku tak paham nye, camne lah boleh ade org ketagih ubat batuk..Err..Deria rase aku ke yg tak normal?) pendek kata, hari isnin & selasa memang aku betul2 rest kat umah..Bila pas makan ubat je, terus tertido macam org mati..bila aku terjaga, matahari dah mula nak terbenam..kuat betul penangan ubat nye..sampaikan masa aku bangun pun aku still rasa mamai & hanyut…In fact, hari ni pun masih tak semangat utk bekerja..buat keje sikit2 aje, yg banyak nye duk usha application kat facebook je..lalalalala~~

P/S: Baru teringat..walaupun tgh demam, malam ahad lepas sempat lg gi tengok movie ‘the coffin’ kat alamanda.. tuh pun sebab kwn yg belanje..hasilnye tak henti2 tekak aku gatal lalu asyik batuk2 je dlm wayang…Bunyi batuk aku lagi kuat dari background music citer tu..demn!! Moral of d story, jgn sesekali menonton wayang ketika anda dilanda demam dan batuk walaupun ade org nak belanje..

Sekian coretan utk hari ini..

Daa~

I’m so pissed off

It was two times dude!

I noticed that my car has been scratched again this morning! And surprisingly it happened at my house parking area..who did it??? Huhh, I don’t have any idea..Although It was not very badly hurt but my heart was hurt ok! Huhhhh, I’m so piss off right now..Damn who scratched my car!!! Tuhan akan membalasnya…Amin

Terribly miserable

Dear Diary,

I deeply know Ramadhan is the holy month and we’re not suppose to feel sad and cry for whatever remeh-temeh things..Plus, Hari Raya is just around the corner..I should happy rite?? I’m going back to my hometown this Saturday morning…InsyaAllah

Umm..as much as I want to be strong, as much as I want to prove to others that I’m Ok..that I can manage my life with my own way in my small world..I have to admit, I am not ok at all..Life doesnt always go my way..Yes, I felt terribly miserable now cry..For my sake, I couldn’t reveal my story here..what I could say right now, it is a sorrow moment..yes, it was and it is..Hurt, hurt and hurt! Ouchhh..stop typing yanie!

O Allah,

Please forgive me for everything I committed in the past and those I will commit in the future..If I ever fell into his trap and followed my desire, then sincerely forgive me, for that displays not only my weakness, but Your Greatness as well….Ameen

Last but not least, Happy Eid Al-Fitr Al-Mubarak..God bless..

Nuzul Al-Quran

17 Ramadhan 1429H..

Hari ini merupakan salah satu hari kebesaran dalam Islam iaitu hari “Nuzul Al-Quran” di mana hari diturunkan wahyu Al-Quran kepada Nabi junjungan kita; Nabi Muhammad S.A.W. Sempena hari yg baik, bulan baik eloklah kiranya kite memahami serba sedikit sejarah tentang hari Nuzul Al-Quran.

(Dipetik dari sumber di Internet)

Terdapat dua pendapat mengikut ahli sejarah, termasuk pendapat para ahli hadis, tentang Al-Quran yang diturunkan (diwahyukan) kepada Nabi Muhammad saw.

Pendapat pertama menyatakan bahawa Al-Quran diturunkan pada malam Isnin tanggal 17 Ramadhan, 13 tahun sebelum hijrah (6 Ogos 610 M). Pendapat kedua pula menyatakan bahawa Al-Quran telah diturunkan pada malam Isnin, tanggal 24 Ramadhan (13 Ogos 610 M). Pendapat yang pertama adalah berdasarkan ayat 41 dari Surah Al-Anfaal, manakala pendapat kedua dasarnya adalah ayat 1 Surah Al-Qadr dan ayat 1-4 Surah Ad-Dukhan.

Walaupun tradisi Nuzul Al-Quran telah lazim diperingati pada tanggal 17 Ramadhan, namun sesungguhnya pendapat kedua adalah lebih kuat dan lebih mungkin benarnya. Ini adalah kerana malam Lailatul Qadar yang dipercayai sebagai malam turunnya Al-Quran bukanlah terjadi pada tanggal 17 Ramadhan.

Adapun dalam firman Allah SWT pada ayat 41 surah Al-Anfaal, yaitu: “jika kamu beriman kepada Allah dan apa-apa yang Kami turunkan kepada hamba Kami (Nabi Muhammad saw) pada hari Furqan, iaitu di hari bertemunya dua pasukan (diperang Badar, antara muslimin dan kafirin)” (TTQ 8 : 41) Ayat tersebut tidak ada sangkut-pautnya dengan Nuzul Al-Quran.

Tetapi sebenarnya ayat tersebut merupakan penjelasan tentang hukum pembahagian harta rampasan perang (seperti yang terdapat pada awal ayat tersebut). ” Ketahuilah sesungguhnya apa saja yang dapat kamu peroleh sebagai rampasan perang, maka sesungguhnya seperlima untuk Allah, RasulNya, kerabat-kerabat (Rasul), anak-anak yatim, orang-orang miskin dan ibnussabil (orang yang sedang dalam perjalanan)” (TTQ 8 : 41).

Dan apabila diteliti dengan lebih lanjut, yakni dengan menghubungkan hadis-hadis tentang turunnya Al-Quran, iaitu pada Lailatul-Qadar dan kelahiran Rasullullah pada hari Isnin serta pada catatan-catatan waktu di dalam takwim, maka akan diperolehi kesimpulan yang lebih tepat, iaitu Al-Quran diturunkan pada hari Isnin, malam 21 bulan Ramadhan, 13 tahun sebelum Rasullulah saw berhijrah ke Madinah.

Menurut para mufassirin, Al-Quran yang diturunkan pada malam “Lailatul Qadar” sebagaimana disebut di atas adalah Al-Quran yang turun sekaligus di “Baitul Izzah” di langit dunia. Sedangkan Al-Quran yang diturunkan ke bumi dan diterima Rasullullah sebagai wahyu terjadi secara beransur-ansur selama sekitar 23 tahun.

Adapun ayat-ayat yang pertama diturunkan (diwahyukan) kepada Nabi Muhammad saw adalah ayat 1-5 surah Al-’Alaq.

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** Psstt..Today is a public holiday in Selangor. That’s why I’m so free to write new post…”HAPPY HOLIDAY!”

It’s all about “berbuka puasa”

Hari ni dah masuk hari ke 14 belas kite berpuasa..wahh, cepatnye mase berlalu..another 2 weeks, saya akan balik kampung for hari raya…Yeayyy!!! Can’t wait for da day..balik raya la is my favorate journey..i guess u guys pun mesti camni gak kan?

Hopefully it’s not too late for me to wish all muslim and muslimah a happy Fasting day..Have a bless Ramadhan ever..Perbanyakkan lah ape2 yg patut dan tinggalkan lah ape2 yang tak patut..we all semua dah matang untuk menilai mane yang baik dan mana yang buruk…kan?

Hmm..as usual, kalo di bulan puase mesti salah satu topic hot kite adalah “makanan utk berbuka..” Rite?? Jangan tipu lah kalo korang tak pikir..malah maybe ade yg pagi2 lagi pun dah pikir petang nanti nak berbuka ape yek..hehe..sumtimes saya pun camtuh gak

Puase tahun ni Alhamdulilah, saya berbuka dengan bersederhana sahaja..kalo weekdays, after balik keje terus beli makanan kat restoran depan rumah je..cukup lah dengan nasi putih and some lauk..tade kuih-muih pun..cume weekend je lah yg different..saya amik peluang ni utk berbuka puase dgn kawan2..maklumlah hari biase sy selalu berseorangan. why not invite some frens and buat small gathering during weekend..best ape!! Boleh eratkan silaturrahim..hehe..Ok lah, let see di mana saya berbuka puase for past few days..actually malas nak membebel banyak2 di bulan puase ni..letak pic pun enuf la kan??

*Wink*Wink

@t Tropicana Golf & country Resort, Damansara – Free buffet, eat as u can

@t Q-Thai restaurant, Cyberjaya – small gathering with ex-utpian; Rinie, Bush & atie

@t SOHO Restaurant, Bangi – With kak Za

Hmm..incoming breakfasting kat mane plak yek??

I’m back

Hello…I’m back! Hmm, 27th August is my last post, meaning that It’s been two weeks I’m not updating anything here..nothing much I could say, i’ve been busy like a bee for few weeks..Thanks to my workload

Actually I don’t know what are the things to be updated here but, again I couldn’t stop my finger to click on new post and start babbling..No mood at all to work and I just thinking..”Besnye kalo dapat tido cam semalam..Haihh, lambat lagi ke nak petang ni??? “..Yes, It’s another Monday guys and dats Monday sindrome too! Haha

My body clock

[0900] – Just arrived..Feel sleepy but still can go through my inbox & surfing

[1000] – Still sleepy but go through my calendar..is got any meeting today? I hate meeting ok? *Sigh~

[1100] – Start working like no more tomorrow (Tipu je tuh)

[1300] – Happy time (Lunch + chit chat with frens)

[1400] – Sleepy again! Working without passion

[1500] – Continue working & feel stress

[1600] – Sometimes feels a bit sad when mind started to think about personal problem..working mood at red level =(

[1700] – Happy again!  another one hour! Yippie~

[1800] – Yeahhh..balik time!! pack all the stuff and out from office *WinkWink~

Dat’s unpredictable of me

27th August 2008

Hmm..I so lazy to type but still wanted to upload some picture of today’s event. A post wouldn’t be completed if picture without words or story without photo..should have both, right?? In conjunction with our coming National Day, ‘Merdeka BBQ Dinner’ has been held at Motorola basement car park. Although the venue sounds not so comfortable, but we really enjoy the meal. At least we’ve supported our government campaign to reduce expenses as well as aligned to our corporate goal (reduction cost project). And of course it very meaningful celebration as we will also have presence of our big bosses from US who will be here for a business trip. Anyway, Thanks to Haidar as the below photo was taken by him. Kak Waiza, me, Munira and Nurul busy with eating and chatting ..heheh

Oh, I almost forgot. I had lunch with Almuataz, my Sudanese friend at Secret Recipe (Food Court Dataran Putrajaya). Btw, his treat..Haihh, suppose I should buy him a lunch but as usual, i won’t be able to say NO to Almuataz. He was my good friend during my study life in UTP, coming here from Sudan to attend the HSE Training. Well, the last time we met each other was June 2006, and today in August 2008 he’s still the same Almuataz and he said me too, the same yanie! Haha..not bad, meaning dat awek muda..ahaks~ Surprisingly I could meet him here. After graduated, he was back to his country to be a Drilling Engineer of PETRONAS and I thought we couldn’t meet again. But who knows, God always knows the best

Note:

Happy 51th Merdeka Malaysia! Semoga negaraku aman sentosa & bebas dari cengkaman penjajah..Amin

Cinta ini membunuhku :(

This is song of da week! Enjoyyyyy~~

D’Masiv

kau membuat ku berantakan
kau membuat ku tak karuan
kau membuat ku tak berdaya
kau menolakku acuhkan diriku

bagaimana caranya untuk
meruntuhkan kerasnya hatimu
ku sadari ku tak sempurna
ku tak seperti yang kau inginkan

reff:
kau hancurkan aku dengan sikapmu
tak sadarkah kau telah menyakitiku
lelah hati ini meyakinkanmu
cinta ini membunuhku

bagaimana caranya untuk
meruntuhkan kerasnya hatimu
ku sadari ku tak sempurna
ku tak seperti yang kau inginkan

repeat reff